Unity..or how to fade out on your own.

Today I heard a song..random song, a bit cheesy..a lot touching. Almost made me cry. I tried to, felt like i needed but. I just couldn't.
I'm like a so very full container. Filled with feelings and ready to explode..for good.
You'd better..back off.
Maybe i. I have no idea.
I can't bleed on a piece of paper anymore. Maybe if I cut it all open. Everything i'm keeping just for myself. All the feelings.
Am i trying to say something to anyone? Am I trying to send a message? I think i am.
But it's all caught in my head and I can't. I just can't. Get it out.
Am I asking for help? No, but. I don't think I would absolutely decline a hug.

Flies will lay their eggs

This world is build on scars..one here, one there. There are never enough fucking stitches. To cover this mess that we've created.
My stomach butterflies moved into my heart. Now they're eating everything from the inside. Beat by beat..bit by bit.
Look around you. There's nobody. You're all alone. Don't ask yourself why. You fucking.know.why.
Take your hatred out on me. Look me in the eyes and tell me you're the not the one to blame. We're not the ones to blame.
We're just the victims.
Ha-ha. What a joke.
We're the jokes. We're the jokers.
We're the idiots with human costumes. While all the others undressed to show their lovely monster glow in the beautiful morning light.
Now let's pretend we like that. Let's fake our way in. We will be eaten alive sooner or later.
Cheers to the zombie apocalypse! Long live armageddon!