Gabrïelle Sleäze..

Mai tii minte ca acum fix 2 ani am scris un mic articol despre tine si cat de mult insemni pentru mine? si fix acum 1 minut mi-ai spus ca ma iubesti.
Nici nu stiu cum sa incep, dar oare e vreun loc anume de unde se poate incepe vreodata? Am pus special o piesa de la HIM pe fundal pentru ca..pur si simplu..e noi. Pentru mine trupa asta e esenta noastra si cred ca mereu va fi. Nu am crezut niciodata ca va exista o persoana care sa ma indrume si pe care sa o indrum. Aparent exista. De cat timp ne cunoastem ? Nu mai retin pentru ca in prietenia noastra zilele s-au simtit uneori ca ani. Simt ca te cunosc si ca ma cunosti si ca prietenia noastra dureaza de secole.
Am vrut atat de mult sa te muti aici si acum ca esti aici ma bucur chiar daca abia ne vedem pentru ca stiu ca esti mai aproape de mine si daca se intampla ceva pot sa vin sa te ajut personal nu prin mijloace si emoticonuri virtuale, ci sa-ti dau o imbratisare pe bune si un umar pe care sa plangi. Stiu ca e grea facultatea iar scoala mea categoric nu ajunge mai usoara dar eu sunt aici daca ai nevoie si sper ca stii asta.. Si sper ca nu o sa uiti vreodata asta.
Pe noi ne leaga atat de multe lucruri de la amintiri pana la marturisiri facute tarziu in noapte, lucruri pe care doar noi le stim una despre alta si o data ce stiu ca tu ai aflat anumite lucruri nu mai simt nevoia sa zic nimanui..Imi e de ajuns ca stii tu, imi e de ajuns ca esti tu. Pentru ca tu esti o bucata din mine, pentru ca tu intr-o masura esti eu iar eu intr-o masura sunt tu(si uite cum in ultima vreme nu prea eram cheesy dar acum nu pot sa nu fiu).
Poate e ciudat pentru unii, sau poate nu. Mereu mi-a placut sa cred ca noi suntem diferite, dar bineinteles cui nu-i face placere sa creada asta despre el insusi? Dar tu mai presus de mine esti diferita.
Esti sora mea, mama mea , iubita mea..jumatatea mea si doar tu poti sa intelegi la ce ma refer cand spun asta.
Te iubesc..La multi multi ani!

..because we never learn..

Am realizat ca oricat de mult ne-am dori nu ne vom schimba niciodata..ne purtam crucea din momentul in care ne nastem pana suntem inghititi de pamant. Si oricat de dur suna chestia asta , oricat de multe lovituri luam de un perete imaginar pus acolo parca sa ne protejeze, noi tot o sa vrem sa trecem peste, sa luam ce nu ne apartine..
Uneori as vrea sa ma schimb, sa nu mai sufar, sa nu-mi mai pese..chestii de genul asta. Dar la sfarsitul zilei realizez ca oricat de mult ma mint tot eu cu mine am ramas si acolo..acolo nu mai sunt secrete. Nu ma pot minti si nu-mi doresc sa fac asta pentru ca daca se intampla se duce si sanatatea mea psihica..Nu o sa pot niciodata sa fiu o fiinta aroganta, care misca oamenii in jurul ei ca niste papusi ca si cum ar fi nimic si calca pe cadavre ca sa ajunga sus..Eu o sa fiu mereu persoana din umbra care ii ridica pe cei care au cazut si eventual se mai si ataseaza de ei..blestem sau binecuvantare?
As vrea sa fiu cu adevarat indiferenta dar cand ajung in stadiul ala ma apuca teama ca nu voi mai putea simti din nou. Si oare de ce m-ar ingrijora asta cand pentru unii oameni lipsa de sentimente pare cel mai frumos lucru din lume? Dar pentru alti oameni dragostea din jurul lor pare raiul pe pamant..Si atunci ce alegi?
Nu am fost niciodata extremista, mereu mi-a placut sa cred ca putin din fiecare e mult mai bine decat tot din ceva. Poate asta e greseala mea, poate nu exista o cale de mijloc. Dar in schimb pot foarte usor sa fiu rautacioasa , sa pun un scut in fata mea care sa scrie cu litere mari:'PERICOL!' special ca sa fiu lasata in pace.Surpriza sau nu dar fix asta am observat ca atrage oamenii ca un magnet. Din nou ce spuneam la inceput: avem un scut sau un perete in fata si dorim cu disperare ceea ce se ascunde in spate oricat de mult am fi avertizati. Singura problema e ca majoritatea sfarsesc prin a avea ceva ce nu au dorit vreodata si apoi prin a se plange. Cat de jalnici suntem..
..atatea ganduri, si atat de putin timp..

Lyrics that get me going through the day..

'All too soon we were divided
and life had just begun
will you revive
from the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever'
Kamelot - Forever

'You fed me long and my god you fed me well,
sleep tight,this day belongs to you my dear...
and i am bound like a beast on to it's prey,
we are one of a kind you and i..'
Kamelot - So long

'"What was summer like for you?"
She asked him with a smile
"What's tomorrow without you?"
He silently replied'
Kamelot - Love you to death

'Don't say goodbye
Like we'd never meet again
Leave me a lie
At the season's end'
Kamelot - Season's end

'It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.'
James Blunt - Goodbye my lover

'I won't let go of things that I was dreaming
I won't let go of you, you keep me believing
and deep in my heart there's a place that I could never show to you
I won't let go of you, my dear'
Negative - Won't let go

'There's a power we can't see
Tired to put it in words, guess it wasn't meant to be
Still do my best to understand, what's behind that's haunting me'
Negative - Gravity of love

'And anyone who knew us both can see
We always were the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free
And all this pain,when does it go away? '
Def leppard - Long long way to go

'It's the hurt that never heals
It's the deepest cut you feel
It's the thing in you that feeds
The animal in me'
Motley Crue - Animal in me

'If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say?
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow'
Motley Crue - If i die tomorrow

'Take it off and get down
My god it's like my head's burnin' up
My mind's so dirty
Get it on,on and on
Ooh, your're my sinful side
SEX SHOCK'
Crashdiet - In the raw

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Crashdïet is a glam metal band from Stockholm, Sweden. They have released three albums:
~2005's Rest in Sleaze;
~2007's The Unattractive Revolution;
~2010's Generation Wild.
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It will keep on ticking till the day you crash & burn'

Dragul meu,

cand vei citi aceste randuri vei sti ca la tine ma refer. Am terminat cartea pe care mi-ai daruit-o acum mult prea mult timp. Oare tu crezi la fel ca si mine in coincidente? Stiu cu certitudine ca pe lumea asta nu exista nimeni care sa creada in puterea dragostei mai mult decat tine, chiar daca eu am folosit uneori niste cuvinte mult prea taioase care ti-au mai taiat elanul.
Dar ti-am explicat in nenumarate randuri in scurtele mele momente de luciditate ca locul tau in inima mea nu ti-l va lua nimeni. Nu ti se pare uneori ca relatia noastra e total degenerata?
..Scuze, m-a chemat tata..Ce ziceam?..Ah da..
Ai zice uneori ca la cum discutam suntem doar doua persoane care se calca pe nervi, dar noi stim ca nu-i asa. Frica ta de a nu ma enerva mai rau ma aprinde, iar tu incerci pe cat de mult posibil sa nu ma superi. Te-ai gandit ca tocmai faptul ca esti atat de grijuliu ma porneste? Doar ma stii atat de bine si stii ca o cearta tot o cearta ramane.
Poate ti-e frica sa nu ne rupem, dar mi-e aproape imposibil sa ma rup de asa o parte din mine.
Tot ce vroiam sa-ti spun era ca am inteles de ce ai ales cartea asta si de ce te-a schimbat. Si pe mine m-a atins exact acolo unde trebuia. Sfarsitul era neasteptat, dar cam asa e si viata nu? Sau poate asa imi place mie sa cred, eu cea cu fobia de monotonie. In 19 zile ne vedem dupa un an. Any thoughts on that? Te las sa te gandesti. Mi-e dor de tine.
Cu drag,
A.Sleäze

Music Shuffle Challenge!

Just received this from my sweet Fiona(my cousin) and i want to share it..so if you do this pls send me a comment with the link im curious of your results..here it goes(oh and just as a side note left is the name of the song and right the artist ^^):

What is your name? Or what should your name be?
Spellbound - Paul van dyk

How is your life going?
Just Like Heaven - The watson twins(yeah..lately u can say that)

What is your nickname?
Lovehatetragedy - Papa Roach

What is your theme song?
Paranoia - Dope

What is your best friend’s theme song?
Saint in sorrow - Carmen Gray

How is your life going to turn out?
Nothing to do with love - Halestorm

Will you get married?
Shadow of your love - The 69 eyes( i gueesss not? )

Will you have kids?
Bang your head - Dope stars inc( Against the wall :)) )

What will your job be?
Buck Dich - Rammstein (that means something like 'bend over'..that's so sleazy haha)

Did you/will you finish school?
Into The Clear - Andrew W.K.

Who is your best friend?
Elvenpath - Nightwish (so..elves? awesome)

Who is or will be your significant other?
Morgenstern - Rammstein( morning star..aww)

Who do you like?
Croatian rhapsody - Maksim Mrvica( yeah i love rhapsodies..but it's not a who)

How will you die?
Disposable Teens - Marilyn Manson( yey im disposable haha)

How do you feel right now?
Away - Nightwish (maybe)

What is your favorite song?
She doesnt know me - Bon Jovi (neah)

How could you describe your parents?
Warriors - Freedom Call( well..my dad at least yeah..hell of one)

Your best friend[s]?
Scream - Billy Idol(hell yea)

Your teachers?
You could be mine - Guns'n'roses( hell nooo :))) )

Your significant other [or crush…]?
I melt with you - Mest( aww)

Yourself?
Have you ever needed someone so bad - Def leppard (good one)

What is your best feature?
I stand alone - Godsmack( yeah..why not?)

What will you be / should you be, profession-wise?
Deep red - Apoptygma Berzerk

How could you describe this survey?
Throw me away - Korn ( haha)

What makes you angry?
C'mon C'mon - Def leppard

What makes you sad?
Through the gates - Celldweller

What makes you happy?
Superstar IQ - Private Line( well i like smart ppl haha)

What makes you dance?
Never been in love - Daniel Lioneye (yeaaa)

What is your favorite color?
No one's gonna do it for you - Vains of Jenna

How would you describe yourself?
No roots on the ground - Reflexion

Who is your worst enemy?
Just another psycho - Motley Crue ( neaaah i know the psycho he's adorable)

Who do you hate?
Ursa Major - Polarkreis 18 ( neah..i love stars)

Who do you love?
Honey and sulphur - Cradle of filth ( i love honey)

Who do you lust after?
Welcome to the machine - Motley Crue



Finish the Sentence

I wish I were
City Lights - Blutengel

I want to
Vermilion - Slipknot

I want to kill
Soul Sacrifice - Entwine

I want to eat
Everything ends - Sinamore( yeah..even food )

My head
Sleep in sanity - Anathema(haha)

I am
When you don't see me - Sisters of mercy

My best feature is
Sentinel - Vnv Nation

My eyes are
The SINdicate - Private Line ( haha)

My hair is
Grey - Flowing Tears( not yeeet :))) )

My face is
Heaven - Gotthard (aww)

You should
Zoe is a weirdo - Backyard babies



Random

Words of advice
Tomorrow - Crashdiet

How do others see me?
Star by star - The Kovenant

...So this was long enough..but fun to do when you're bored

And when it rains..

And it rains and my heart is filled with a beautiful perfumed cinnamon smell from my incense sticks, and some old balad's riffs finds its way in my head with melancholic thoughts..
I cling to my window to feel closer to the rain drops, closer to my memory of that kiss..their wet touch makes me feel happy and their fresh scent makes me smile
I love rain , i love melancholic ballads, and i know you loved it too..I feel caught in my memories and i would never leave that place..it is like wonderland, my crazy wild rebel wonderland..
the sun is rising
over lost horizons
i pick a star and give to you..
This is my ballad..This is my song today, tonight..until the rain stops..